Have I ever asked myself that by releasing it off will lift the burden off from my chest? or its just my heavy heart thats all soaked with blood trapped inside preventing it to flow into my brain. It crashes the whole entire brain system that causes it to be dead. Feeling-less, emotion-less, hunger-less, desire-less, thought-less are what left inside. All these words are the main reasons that put myself to a complete stop.

But little receptors are miraculously functioning...
So what should I do now? theres still ability for me to think. . . .

I always wanted my life to just sit on an oar-less boat on a river that flows into the sea.
But what it seems now is more likely to be stacking up crates.
So What should I do now? is this fate or just plain opportunity?

Fate doesnt exist if you believe in it. Opportunity will not be given if you look for it.
Its all stuck in between. So what should I do now?
it doesnt seems suicidal nor does it seems believable.
It makes propaganda text seems like a holy book. And a holy book seems like fables.

Im going to think straight. So what should I do now?
Ive much confidence in me to proceed with my life to get what I want,
what I need and Im all ready to face every obstacles again.

Life seems unfair, I am a loser, but I just need to tie a knot to make it tight.
Even if I dont get what I expected, cos what I expected may not seems right.